SERIOUSLY?

Okay I started a new way of eating (not calling it a "diet" because those are temporary). It is based on Dr. D'Adamo's book, "Eat Right 4 Your Type."



In the book he breaks down different diets, based upon your blood type. I first read (more like skimmed) over his book around a year or so ago. When a friend's daughter mentioned she was eating "according to her blood type", I remembered the book. So, I thought I'd give it a whirl..

No dairy, no wheat, no corn, no potatoes.. to name the big items.

I was called crazy by one friend and another friend said that when this "way of eating" doesn't work, she'll help me "diet".

I refuse to count every single thing that goes in my mouth! Won't do it.. I won't!
Sorry, excuse that outburst.. . .

So anyway, I loose 4 pounds and I'm feeling awesome. Not only about the weight, but I really feel good. I was trying new recipes, made semi-successful bread (it didn't rise right). Things were going good.
Then I noticed the scales going back up. Just a pound at first, but when I weighed myself this morning.. I'm right back to where I started.

SERIOUSLY?

So I'm opting out of "no dairy" for now and exercising. The dairy was the one thing I was struggling with the most. I'm also considering adding corn back in my diet, as long as it's not the first ingredient. . . .we'll see.

For now, I'm still holding on to hope that this will work at some point. Just waiting for that some point...

LIAR!!

So many things have happened over the last year, it's hard to sort it out into one post.

Today was an emotional day for me (already and it's not even 2pm!), and I really, really feel the need to vent. I have no one to vent to!!! My husband is working, my friends don't need to hear what I have to say (long story, but it would fuel the fire of negative feelings/views they already have). . .so, guess what? Cyberspace becomes my tool to vent. Don't you feel blessed?

I have been lied to my whole "religionity" life. I was told that the person who stands in front of the congregation and preaches God's Word is right. Or at least mostly right. I am to respect them and not go against the tide. Well God gave me a brain too, and if I see something in scripture that doesn't line up with what the "pastor" said, then I say something. And I have. And I left.

Which brings me to today. As I sat in a local assembly of believers (can't call it a church because that really isn't what it is.. long story, for another post), I found myself getting upset. What was being said WASN'T true. Couldn't be. What was being said was that God is not interested in the details of my life.

This has been stated before by the "teacher", but this time it was stated SEVERAL times in one "message".

I said something when they were done with the Bible Study, and they pointed to the Bible and basically said I had no proof. I have no biblical proof that God cares about the details of my life.

Knowing this fact, I still got angry. And I'm still angry. "LIAR!" is what I want to scream. But I have no biblical proof.

All the verses that talk about how He has written names in His hand and covered with His wings is for Israel. Not me (something I'm learning.. rightly dividing scripture).

It makes me upset. I guess it makes me upset because I want to trust someone whole-heartily and I cannot with this teacher.

It's impossible to trust EVERYTHING someone says, just because they say it with a Bible in their hands. Isn't that why God gave us all the Bible? Gave us all brains? Gave us all reasoning?

It still makes me mad, but I'm getting over it.. see, I feel better already!

Momma Has Had Enough

I love the skit that Mark Lowry does when he talks about how his mom had had enough.

I have definably had enough. I want to blame it on hormones, the kids acting up, just about anything then what I know is the problem.. . .I haven't been in God's word. I haven't been allowing Him to direct my feet and light my paths.

I'm ultra frustrated tonight. And yes, it is hormones (ahh.. that curse) and it is a kiddo (actually only one at the moment) that is acting up. If I was allowing God to direct me, though, I don't think I would be as moody about it. At least I hope not.

So, for now I'm going to get my little princess to bed as quickly as possible, tuck my prince in shortly after that, brew some coffee, finish wrapping a couple presents, and listen to my Lord speak to me. I only hope that I listen to break the cycle of this week's mood I've been in.. . .

Crash Landing

I behaved my self "unseemingly" as I Corinthians 13 says love doesn't do on Sunday. I was upset because I looked bad and my son saw me that way. I let my pride get in the way. I should not have said anything to anyone, I should have gone home and just forgotten the whole thing. . .but I didn't. I can't take anything back, no matter how hard I try.

Today I tried to apologize to the adult whom I hurt on Sunday, but they stated that they didn't want to talk to me anymore about it unless there were "witnesses" with them.

The news hit me like a brick, took all the wind out of me, and shocked me. . .however you want to put it.

Last year I had a rotten attitude while I was teaching the Bible lessons to the children in our church. I prayed for God to take me out of the ministry. I shouldn't have been having that attitude and still trying to muddle through God's truth. But, God kept me in. Now I feel as though He's leading me out, but I wonder if I'll be thrown out. It hurts me, but I know it's my pride. God changed my heart towards serving the children's ministry.

Now I have this meeting to go to, when I have no idea, and I don't know what to think of it.

God is God and He is in control. My flesh says, "Hey, I've had a change of heart, don't pull me out!" But I know that all things work together for good, for His good. God is faithful.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose."
Romans 8:28

Who's Up for Another Roller-Coaster Ride?

What an emotionally challenging weekend.. and nothing had to do with Thanksgiving!

Yesterday Ms. Daisy hogged the tv all day and refused to let anyone watch it. Funny, but the last time I checked, MY name was on the cable bill and MY name is on this house. Without throwing her too much to the "dogs" I'll just say that I can't wait until her house is sold (it's not even on the market yet.. ahem, Morbid Man).

Today my day was much better - until. . . Someone broke my son's heart. One simple small action almost ruined him for the day. I tried to get him to calm down, but in the process I started crying too. It wasn't someone trying to be mean, it was someone that I know would never intentionally hurt my son. They told him he couldn't have something he really wanted because I hadn't paid for it yet. This was true, but I didn't know I had to pre-pay. We had originally agreed that I would pay at the first of the month and the last time I checked it's not December yet. I did speak to this person (an adult) that hurt my son, but I know I did not handle the situation well. I wanted to scream, yell, shake her and ask her, "What were you thinking!?" Instead I tried my hardest to fight back the tears and urge to yell, but I know we're not done with the conversation. I'm going to have to go into the church office and pay. . .and they'll probably be there.

I heard someone joke once that "the ministry" would be so much easier if you didn't have to deal with people. But that's why God made us all so different and put us in situations together.

I only pray that I handle things with Ms. Daisy and this lady in the way that God wants me to.

Take a deep breath..

now let it out. Feels good, doesn't it? Why do we rob our bodies of something they need; like, exercise. I've been attending a local workout gym and I feel amazing. I joined to try to loose some weight. Instead I've gained a little, but I've also gained much more. I'm pushing myself (with help from a friend) and have muscles in my arms and legs that are more defined. I'm trying to make wiser decisions with my eating. . . and not feeling like I'm hungry or I "can't" eat anything.
It's crazy, but why do we have to become unhealthy to see the benefits of being healthy?

I think it's the same way in our walk with God. Things go well, we don't pay that much attention. But God wants us to GROW. He doesn't want us to stay the same. . .ever. It doesn't matter if we think we're closer to God than "that" woman/man, He cares how we're growing.

If you claim to be one of Christ's. . .how's your walk? Are you growing closer? Where are your feet heading? What is God done in your life today? Not last week, last month, last year, last decade - today.

Old Dogs, New Tricks?

Ever find yourself in a routine? Even with my family of two kiddos and a husband we have a semi-routine.
How about those habits you do, and don't even know why? I know I've got those too.

Ms. Daisy and my Knight got onto a pretty big mountain today and decided to battle. Sort of a nice way to say my Knight got upset and finally "drew the line", so to speak.

I wish it was easy for people to change, but it's not. It's hard for me to change. God's so faithful to keep trying, even though He knows what I will do before He tries. And when I mess it up, He still keeps trying. I gotta ask my princess' favorite question, "Why?"

Because of my favorite verse. It's my favorite verse because it gives me hope that God is not done with me. . . .despite how much I fight Him at times.
It's Philippians 1:6 "Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ".

Hope. He's not going to quit on me until I am like Him.

People are people. We are all sinners who try to look nice and clean up the outside to look good for others. What we need to worry about is how God sees us.

If you are one of His children, He has begun a very good work in you, and He's going to finish it - no matter what.