Avoidance

I'm avoiding you today, Mary. Or I guess I am avoiding God really, since He's using her book to "prick" my heart.

I keep thinking that I shouldn't take a nap, although the house is pretty quiet. My daughter is "sleeping" (playing in her room, quietly, instead of sleeping is more like it), my hubby is sleeping, the "dogs" (we're doggie sitting for the week, we already have one dog of our own.. now it's two), and my son is still at school.

I'm finding all kinds of things to do.. nothing of which will enhance my home or heart at the moment. Playing games on the computer and "chatting" doesn't really do me much good.

I did get rid of some magazines today, old ones from 2008. I told myself I'd keep them to do some craft projects with my kiddos "someday". I think it's safe to say that if we haven't done anything from the magazines this whole time (over a year, some of them two years) then we aren't going to do craft projects from those magazines. I have a ton of scrap material for "someday" projects. I haven't even gotten my son & daughter's pillow cases done! Those things are easy to sew...just keep finding "other" things to do. Perhaps tonight would be a good night to get those things done. I hope I actually get them done.

How much stuff do I actually need? I mean truly need. I'm sure it's no where near the amount of stuff that I've got.

How do we let our lives get this congested? How come we can't figure it out? How come I sit in my house, hate that it's so cluttered, but don't want to take the effort to fix it?

Granted, it's not as bad as some other homes I've seen in my life, but still... do I really need a "junk" closet, drawer, room, wall, floor area.. when do I finally say enough?