Ooze

I feel like at any moment today I'm going to come undone. I'm so tired. I'm so upset. I just want to drop off my daughter at school and crawl back into bed. But I can't. I asked a friend to meet with me to help me figure out how I can help my son at school (her son had the same struggles) and I really don't want to go over there anymore. I don't want to be around anyone anymore. I feel like if one more person wants something out of me I'm going to run out of the room screaming.

I'm tired. I'm tired of feeling alone. I'm tired of doing everything by myself. I'm tired of feeling like a single parent who's married. I'm tired of "that's the way it is, babe". I'm tired.

I feel as though I'm spinning out of control. I don't want to go to my friend's house, because I feel like I'm gonna have a breakdown and she doesn't have time for breakdowns.

I don't want to feel this needy. My mom is incredibly needy. She never can have enough attention. But I feel so alone. I want someone to have time for me to blow my top, cry for an hour or two. Just to release it.

I feel like I'm oozing out. Like I'm loosing control of everything.. . .even myself. And no one has time to care.