Blood Suckers

Please don't get me wrong, I love my kids, they are truly a blessing from God.

Sometimes, though, I feel as though they suck me dry. Sometimes, when it's late, I have no desire to do anything but veg out and eat chocolate after they go to their beds (notice I didn't say sleep.. even now my daughter is talking when she's supposed to be sleeping).

Today is one of those days. Perhaps it's me overreacting, perhaps it is the weather (rained, so they couldn't go outside), perhaps it's because my "period" is upon us soon. . .for whatever the reason, I feel as though I'm zapped out. As if I've given all day and there's nothing left.

I know that soon my husband is going to get out of the shower, sit in front of the tv to relax a bit, and then want to go have some "fun".

Frankly, I'm too zapped for fun. Fun doesn't interest me tonight. I want to veg and go to bed and be left alone.

That's not fair to my husband. I hate feeling this way. I hate that we don't get to spend many evenings together (work schedule) and he, frankly, deserves a little fun.

So, here I sit, writing my words out for no one to hear. By the way, this is extremely therapeutic. I have visions of two hundred years from now someone will be reading these words I write and feel the same way. I sure hope they know that they aren't the only ones. Sometimes that's how I feel on nights when the blood suckers have sucked the life right out.. . .